You. You’re wonderful, Annie.
Irl friends? Why do you think I say that I have none? Barely anyone cares. It’s painful, and it hurts, especially when one really thinks they do. But I learned that “irl friends” are just for show. Because if they actually cared, I wouldn’t feel happier with my “online” friends than I do them. I feel more safe with you and the others than I do with them. You guys know me better than them.
Social anxiety is a real burden. Hell I can’t even go to the bank and cash my bloody stuff without feeling like a deer on high alert. It really blows and when your mum is acting like that towards you, it would really make it worse.
No one should have the right to say “you’ve spoken out too late"or whatever. No one. Whoever said it might have seen it too late or might not have seen them at all, depending on whenever they got on but– the truth of the matter is.
You’ve been posting it.
People have obviously seen it.
I don’t know how many followers you have but surely, SURELY, some one at LEAST must have seen it.
The fact that you know you can rely on me makes me happy but it also pains me because, I know that feeling. Because if that one person isn’t there…. what should you do?
If that one person you rely on isn’t available or around at that time or can stay, from my pov, if I were in that position, I wouldn’t want to disturb them myself considering I wouldn’t want to get them tied up in my mess when they have something to attend to.
Was that how it was for you?
But Annie, I love you and care about you a lot. I don’t know who else talked to you about this, but you know I care.
Also. Hell. If you’ve lost motivation? Then that’s fine.
Because when you’re feeling like this, motivation will leave. You wouldn;t believe how many times motivation’s left me, all because of "how sick I feel” or “my skin today” kind of things.
It’s fine. It’s also normal to want to delete an acc. I’ve almost done that with Saeko SO many times already, you’d probably scold me.
If you’ve lost motivation though, I’ll make icons for you.
I’ll do that all for you just please, relax for now. Take a step back, turn that sadness and hurt into anger towards anyone who’s hurt you. Lash out, if you need to. And if you need to cry, I’m always here. My shoulder.
